Big Sister

So these past couple of days I have been thinking a lot about being a sister. I had gotten some of those email forwards that talked about how your sisters will always be there and that You will always have and friend. It said that when you get older your sisters will be your best friends, and they are the ones you can always talk to and turn to.

After reading this email I just felt sad. I won't be able to call up my sister and say "Hey, Lets have lunch!", or "Wanna babysit my kids?" I am never going to go on crazy road trips with her, or to watch her get married and have the cutest kids. We aren't ever going to live close and swap kids, or borrow sugar from each other. I just makes me wish I would have done things better while I had her here.

It has been so long since she left us, almost two and a half years. I have heard that it gets easier as time goes on, but its not. I keep my self busy, to keep myself away from the pain.

Anyways this past week I have had sometime to think about her and our time. I had myself a little pity party, but as I was doing that my "sister" Calais called me and texted me and sent me an email. She is up here for school and said that she need a big sister. I am so happy that she called me! I helped so much. She was just at the breaking point and needed big sister time.

I picked her up after work, and we went and got soup, and just caught up. I hadn't seen her in over a month. I love her so much.
Thanks lil' Sis for letting me have the chance to play big sister.